tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-71704520317348674102012-02-16T01:53:40.451-05:00<b>arts and awareness;<br>care-taking, craft work, and domestic dexterity.</b>pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.comBlogger461100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-84104995988206715642011-04-11T14:10:00.001-04:002011-04-11T14:47:39.073-04:00

It was a beautiful weekend. I want to remember it. Some cleaning, some crafting... I've been working a good pace on Mary's tea cosy (though her birthday was Sunday, we'll deliver it when we're in New York at the end of this month) and have been working FEVERISHLY on the cat for Gramma's birthday. This coming Friday, we will drive the ten hours to Memphis. We're scheduled to have dinner with

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-85193792115312416062011-04-04T10:47:00.003-04:002011-04-11T10:31:40.627-04:00

LEV is out of town, so I'm up all night :) a day of gardening and errands.  a nice bath, a quiet hour that'd i'd wished to be a nap but wasn't, movies, crafting, pepsi! i have tomorrow for a few more errands and additional moment-by-moment. Jobs are currently stable if not ideal.  Stray dog(s) found home(s).  Laura wrote all over our calendar for this month and I'm so glad.  Asheville this

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-70307292514812619612011-03-09T16:52:00.001-05:002011-04-04T10:48:51.283-04:00

I probably haven't told much of a story about ladybugs, but I have one... Maybe it sounds silly to most people. LEV and I share a love of them for very similar reasons, and I am endeared to my friend Stephanie in a way that is related to the little aphid-eaters. Short and sweet, ladybugs have some other-worldly, spiritual significance for me... and that's my deal, cool? What makes me laugh in

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-28367010630274370462011-02-17T11:46:00.019-05:002011-03-10T12:26:50.936-05:00

Robin arrives tonight. She's taking a gelato workshop related to her job and is bringing dessert. We've decided to take her for pizza... that should avoid a mess at the house and make more of our short time with her. She's only staying overnight, after all. It has been such a stressful week from our j-o-b perspective. LEV is super concerned about her stability at work, again. It's such a roller

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-25179273070158571392011-02-14T00:40:00.003-05:002011-02-18T10:31:15.496-05:00

it's been an amazing day and i know it. i feel amazing. it's an amazing moment.and it's entirely too late for me to be awake, but here i sit, on February 14, 2011, at nearly 1am, typing into my blahg.but it could be so much worse. and it's not. it's way better.happy valentine's day, my love(s).

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-7719573024710662392011-02-11T12:16:00.008-05:002011-02-14T00:43:03.428-05:00

Wow. This week has flown by!Days at the office have been moderately slow and surely productive. Once home in the evening, we are hurried to get dinner together so as to abide by our commitment to eat before 7:30pm.Laura has been teaching music to a couple neighborhood boys, children of our friends, in preparation for a talent show coming toward the end of the school year. I sit, as patiently as

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-44716744423744327072011-01-30T23:13:00.012-05:002011-02-12T00:48:46.059-05:00

knitting is such an evolution of learning.so many things are.it's been a really beautiful weekend.we've spent lots of time outside, we've gotten fresh air and exercise. there have been ample amounts of communication.spring clean. can you believe it? i finally packed christmas stuff away.hA!lev moved the drying tree into the back yard - i left the strings of lights on it and, until we decide to

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-16692919848617099472011-01-04T10:30:00.020-05:002011-01-05T16:58:45.560-05:00

trying hard to kick this cold that's come on over the weekend... i should have known it would grab me. did i contract it from the travel, walking miles through the blizzard in new york, from the dog-sitter who was suffering when we last saw him? the general course of things.but down time has given me added opportunity for the indoor hobbies i enjoy. though i did see a quote i find very funny

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-57898614549655475122010-12-30T22:37:00.000-05:002010-12-30T22:38:13.785-05:00

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-55852490163318810042010-10-07T15:10:00.004-04:002010-10-07T15:42:26.136-04:00

my daddy died yesterday. i had to look at the picture i took of his tombstone to remember the date correctly.i have this memory of learning that he'd died. it was a monday morning.i used to call him every sunday and, because his birthday was the thursday coming up, i had planned to wait.but he died.i kept doing the math wrong. but if i count back from thursday, october 10, 1998 to the sunday

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-85103917395003525142010-09-21T14:28:00.005-04:002010-09-21T15:19:31.910-04:00

what i would like to say to you:you are not really my friend anymore. we used to talk all the time, but now i'm finding that, except for a VERY few reasons to call, i have to make myself visit.i would like to better build my relationship with those other people i use you for, but convenience wins.meanwhile, i should probably be hanging out here instead of amidst the high-school halls it seems

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-7511720861762303862010-04-02T09:28:00.002-04:002010-04-02T09:32:56.377-04:00

i feel so grown up, in some ways, and so petulant in others.i'm going through all the motions of getting things in line... i'm calling contractors, i'm reading about the historic neighborhood's standards and processes, i'm studying the rules and regulations of the loan, i'm on the phone with mortgage lenders...and i want to just throw a freakin' fit!

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-8551751731743148432010-03-06T11:08:00.001-05:002010-03-06T11:08:36.208-05:00

by the close of 1999, i had settled back in at mom's.we all lived in a trailer park north of dallas.i was twenty.before my brother and i could get an apartment of our own, i needed a job - hopefully one in the industry i'd left my arizona home and boyfriend of five years to endeavor upon.i suited up and interviewed at several restaurants for entry-level food-prep positions.with only my

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-23514913329113446142009-11-22T06:46:00.003-05:002009-11-22T07:15:53.079-05:00

whoa.laura and i went to The Olive Garden for dinner tonight.after last night's effort at italian food away from home, we were so disappointed and still craving that we thought a nation-wide chain would be trust-worthy. and The Olive Garden was certainly decent - i will go so far as to say, in comparison to the travesty that was last night's local experience, we were eating in Eden.but, since

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-21047756096671933222009-08-09T14:33:00.000-04:002009-08-09T15:04:14.086-04:00

well, it's just lev and me. plus two dogs and two birds, all of whom are doing well, as well.the movers were great goodboys from alabama, in the family of a small business based here in this new home-town.our northern next door neighbors smiled on the day we moved in and brought us a chicken(stuffed & roasted with rosemary from the garden between our houses) dinner with sauteed green beans(

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-48687963901718290982009-06-18T06:10:00.000-04:002009-06-18T06:11:41.158-04:00

healingnothing more than heeaaling.good times.super grateful, really.simple things in big change.great movie : dark matterworking from home: long hours, but leisurely and so much more work actually gets done - in both arenas.little boy dog has been sick for days. from the outside, it appears to have gotten worse; but i am assured, at this point, that i can wait until morning to see.i will work

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-53979250960217137302009-06-01T20:47:00.000-04:002009-06-01T20:51:00.275-04:00

i feel really good today. happy.lots of errands to tie up.no biggie, though.very productive day at work.good day for the dogs.good day in my relationship with the spouse.home to a fresh-cooked meal.showers and taking care of selves.i felt cute in my new clothes that fit; regardless of what size they are, they look nice.forward thinking.forward moving.ahoy!

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-26180422472678004542009-05-02T22:34:00.000-04:002009-05-03T00:41:09.697-04:00

i was happily in the comfort of my home, freshly changed out of rain-soaked clothes, and sipping a bowl of home-made chicken soup - chock full of cilantro;i had indulged in one triple tall soy latte from that-coffee-shop-on-every-corner;i had mapped and shopped two dallas estate sales, acquiring one center-folding tray table, two swiveling slatted vintage bar stools (quite akin to these), a small

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-47669490910059664172009-04-26T14:27:00.001-04:002009-04-26T15:53:34.262-04:00

again on sunday...i'm enjoying a cup of coffee: brewed with half Veria brand, half Cafe du Monde...i also have a cup of water, large plastic cup with lid and straw that i recycled from work - they usually last about five days, from our new Brita filter.i've spent the past half hour researching a particular vinegar that our household is low on, one we hardly want to live without, straight from

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-10427761333665275792009-04-19T13:33:00.000-04:002009-04-19T14:29:36.679-04:00

a lovely date with steph last night. so grateful to have her so close by, if only temporarily.cathartic.great perspective.asserted more intention.it's good to be so clear sometimes - and seemingly, only available in the company of people who know you.my precious blue bird loves the new companion i rescued from a shelter three months back.that little budgie has been so active.we named the partner

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-71838414031105018572009-04-08T18:38:00.000-04:002009-04-08T19:04:46.417-04:00

it has been a long week already, baby.wow.i'm going to focus on some good things, though - like this coming weekend,and like absolving some very stressful circumstances in our lives to make way for new beginnings.gotta make the best out of what is dished in our direction.but none of that "gotta eat everything on your plate," even if i do agree that there is no making up for lost ...today i

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-7729682780439198332009-03-30T15:19:00.000-04:002009-04-08T10:47:52.114-04:00

i've decided that, in living "one day at a time", it is suiting me best to evaluate the days i've most recently lived (by observing them in brief retrospect),to determine what has been most healthful for me,and to decide what is, at this point, at least moderately tolerable;then i simply carry on...of course it's not always so easy... but i gotta do that integrity thing;and i gotta do that

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-44090759507804966722009-01-09T11:05:00.000-05:002009-03-30T19:04:54.153-04:00

it's me again.

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-6782293675603080922008-07-23T00:09:00.000-04:002008-07-23T00:18:05.447-04:00

i'm all packed up.today was a very long, leisurely morning and then a very busy afternoon and evening.we've gone for walks and snuggled for hours...we've taken a long bath and eaten at lots of odd intervals.we don't pee as much as i thought we would.al sent me some email from many moons ago.i'm so grateful.talk about change...really, i think about work a lot.it's so silly to say but, so far as

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-30375371555009170252008-07-05T00:23:00.000-04:002008-07-05T00:33:30.004-04:00

i've been going on some silly-crazy hunts.i've been looking up information and i've been so inspired and i'm just, after one really long harrowing day, i'm having a nicely objective and fast, spaced-out day.i did enough work today that i blistered my knife callous.cracks me up for several reasons...had some good fun and got some shit done and had time to relax and regroup a little bit, even on

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-43113583826102152182008-06-29T01:32:00.000-04:002008-06-29T01:43:54.387-04:00

so much to learn whereas 'relationships' are concerned.kinda like they're just everything anything is in the first place...of course.reminiscing tonight about how there was time when i considered another person home. i try to recall what either of us ever, if we had, stated we'd wanted from that arrangement/agreement...it's possible it was in vain and is inapplicable at this point.obviously, we

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-34328956328985724942008-06-26T01:15:00.000-04:002008-06-26T01:26:14.779-04:00

coming in from a night out,the branches up the walkway are laden with moisture from an amazing storm.the wind still blows and, as i duck to avoid them, those limbs let loose the water they'd been holding...i am rained upon, as i'd wished to be from the bar i played pool in...prepositions...phrases i chide about using for ends.transitions,phases i know that i'm working and in...girls, i'm crazy!

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-7852662132323818152008-06-14T01:28:00.001-04:002008-06-14T01:32:50.632-04:00

to the one(s) i love.my days run by the nights.i can't, sometimes, remember if it's tuesday or thursday.friday night? i go by other peoples' schedules.i watch the moon wax and wane,but i cannot recall whether what i said or did was this day or that.let me write it down. clean and in working order... properly labeled and stored...i'm okay.i'm better than just fine.sometimes, the "fantasy" world

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-80538663336957617822008-05-06T00:10:00.001-04:002008-05-06T00:14:21.955-04:00

definitely a work in progress. but so thoroughly enjoyable.later, i will definitely add another picture of other pieces to the project... the different mediums i will apply once the painted part is "complete".

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-43804013897392016912008-04-19T21:41:00.000-04:002008-04-19T21:44:18.690-04:00

spring has sprung. smells of grills cooking and sounds of children cheering and playing in the streets abound.i'm mostly trying to relax and keep my head on straight. do a good job. paint a layer every time i cross paths with the project... i think about work and about painting - it is good to have my mind mostly occupied and it is good to know that i am capable of clearing all thoughts

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-10265405079826256942008-04-19T00:53:00.001-04:002008-04-19T00:53:19.252-04:00

http://sarahfoxart.com/splash.htmlhttp://www.grace-design.com/http://www.stvictordiaries.com/http://www.jaylong.com/

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-82736158818880708832008-04-18T04:18:00.000-04:002008-04-18T04:31:06.226-04:00

i'm sketching out a recent drawring onto canvas and will paint it up and up for the next while of my free time.i'm quite a bit obsessed and, while it is a bit stressful because i've never worked on canvas before and it is additional standing and sitting up straight and leaning over what i'm doing, it is wonderfully relaxing.i'm listening to a playlist i've labeled "favourites" . i like spelling

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-11065303818491743732008-04-10T02:45:00.000-04:002008-04-10T10:29:25.256-04:00

work is fine.we are only four-strong at the moment... i am not really sure how finding staff is so difficult, but it's not my gig, so i'm trying not to worry about it.i feel as though i am mostly successful at doing a good job of what is (quote/unquote) expected of me, but i am sometimes inclined to do more than what is my responsibility...i believe there is a fine line where that sort of

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-73257904611810052642008-03-31T22:26:00.000-04:002008-04-01T12:32:21.677-04:00

i love sundays. and i'm not trying to be total cheese by pulling from what i recognize as the bangles, but a sunday is usually my fun-day... even if i have to work.yesterday was excellence. we opened and closed together, which isn't, on sunday, a particularly long shift; we were already fairly exhausted, but my boss and i still had a great time holding it all down ourselves. go team.speaking of

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-51796194144746198752008-03-09T16:24:00.000-04:002008-03-09T17:24:56.263-04:00

i'm not even kidding - the food we make is so damn delicious.i mean, it's pretty normal food... food that you can eat all the time, not really anything super fancy, but GOOD.i will have tuesday and wednesday off after something like seventy-five hours since my last day off, the sunday past. i suppose it only rounds out to about ten hours a day or something - not so bad as some people are making

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-30361317815808170862008-03-08T01:31:00.000-05:002008-03-08T11:44:32.150-05:00

i have good times.and life is such that i'm beginning to understand the "routine" and i'm beginning to develop some "stability". my life is work and family and my closest friends.i practice kindness resolutely.i'm at the shop as often as they'll have me. i feel most at home there, besides some of the subtle politics and weird competitive attitudes that come with working as a team...i'm elated

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-24471567858149068762008-02-29T01:00:00.000-05:002008-03-02T23:22:02.771-05:00

today, i'm tired in a way i haven't been in many weeks.it's the same sort of tired a person might get from crying for several hours: It's hot, dry eyes, it's sore shoulders and an aching abdomen; but it's also tight feet and knees, a hair-pulled-into-a-knot-for-too-long stiffness...it's refreshing. it is, currently, so much more welcome than other exhaustion i have experienced in the past many

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-34584397258323469852008-02-23T05:29:00.000-05:002008-02-23T16:07:52.788-05:00

i'd written this other number, but i was doing too much other stuff in the meanwhile and by the time i'd returned to this window to push save now, the application had disconnected itself and, whoosh, bye-bye entry.i could have been more careful.i could have known better.but i got this out instead:driving east over the highways through the mid-cities of dallas/fort worth ... it's rush hour, but

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-44483546791665845182008-02-08T18:49:00.000-05:002008-06-14T01:19:43.216-04:00

*an associate, i will call him a friend, recently asked me to give him my "birth-to-today" story.i obliged, but it took me a few days to send it to him...it took me several sittings, sometimes with my many windows and tabs open (perhaps i multi-task more sloppily than most others i know), to get the email completed. there was more thought behind it than i had anticipated; which details to

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-12597643993131131062008-02-02T22:20:00.001-05:002008-02-02T22:38:34.842-05:00

it doesn't, of course, take long to remember why i didn't stay here before.but the rememory of "temporary" is a great mantra.remembering that i am having the hormonal yucks is also a good reason to calm myself.and i'm convinced again that in this environment, as it is now, i am best to be more quiet than not and to take the time to be NOT distracted from my prize-in-mind.bella, you gave me a

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-33836192233622502422008-01-31T02:17:00.000-05:002008-01-31T02:29:33.289-05:00

i'd said darker & warmer, but i think for right now it's a bit too dark and will require more maintenance than i am eager about... however, it is, in my opinion, an improvement over the brassy hay that my mane was becoming.and please disregard the lips - i got stuck on a popsicle, no kidding.currently listening to Joan Armatrading... another rediscovered love.reading about various dietary

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-30703227322999785192008-01-27T05:25:00.000-05:002008-01-27T05:30:21.597-05:00

1it is nights like this that i think i'm a bot hod.freezing outside... in a skinny little top and new-ish jeans because we've gone out and sil is the sponsor...but fog all the way home and my nipples are at full attention by the time i can change into my "no bare behinds" thermal shirt...brrr!yum.why not?2new wardrobe, thanks to local donors.3new hairs, thanks to local donors4working on the job;

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-11302507057481369292008-01-19T14:31:00.000-05:002008-01-19T14:41:34.348-05:00

1.obsessed with musics. tried to make some cd's or something for the roadtrip, but it takes too much of my time and attention, really, to sort through it all.annoying.i've been reading a lot, also.there is so much i want to read! holy shit.2.i am really going to miss the dog. what am i going to do!?! it's like she's my best friend here!3.i was reading through some of my other diary... so

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-36622833710292165852008-01-12T16:34:00.000-05:002008-01-12T17:39:15.862-05:00

1.making the decision to be on my way back to texas is a relief. now i just have to find a way there.trouble with most forms of transit - no pets... and i just can't leave Budgie and The Chipper here... cannot do it.2.insomnia - hello again!oh, but i did not miss you!i have yet to acquire any melatonin, but today's awakening was rude. on weekdays i have been able to sleep until about nine.last

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-62668624162773194602008-01-12T01:59:00.000-05:002008-01-12T02:39:37.832-05:00

perhaps a consequence of my move to san francisco will be finding a fantastically reliable gay boy-friend.i have encountered a SHOCKING lack of gay boy-friends in this part of ohio.

pbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15622925984584434560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7170452031734867410.post-88994954717577938642008-01-09T20:26:00.000-05:002008-01-09T20:39:16.163-05:00

this has gone on for entirely too long!!!!what does my life depend on RIGHT NOW?finding something to do with myself.feeling less trapped, which possibly means only being more communicative with the people i've surrounded myself with.learning. i need learning so bad. like, information learning. and things i can absorb and apply to loving myself more.i feel as though my brain is shriveling up

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